YSaturday, April 15, 2006
Friday, April 14, 2006
"Her Love for me,
is like the wind,
I can't see it,
But I always feel it.."
time passes so fast,
at times we didn't even realise,
dat the breathes we take,
eventually ends da day in an instant..
blood gushing,
my heart pumping,
my ears buzzing,
and my eyes were blinded,
but at the end of the day,
i sat to myself,
and i couldn't find a reason why...
you were everything to me,
and everything dat i'd ever dream of..
u may appear so sudden,
or even at the wrong time..
but at the end of the day,
i sat to myself..
and i hope dere was a reason why...
the times we shared,
were golden moments of my life,
it can be rewinded,
but it could never be replayed..
and at the end of the day,
i sat to myself,
and i knew that the moments were priceless..
and dere was always a reason why...
but as times moved on,
there were ups and downs,
we guided each other,
in this dark and massive storm..
when u fell,
i offered u my hand,
but when i fell,
u offered me yr arms..
and at the end of the day...
i sat to myself...
she is so special and extraodinaire,
and i knew there was a reason why...
i didn't know her dat much,
nor do i know everything about her,
but whenever she appears,
i felt as though i knew her for years..
people says dat i do not look like her,
but why does she look like me?
the wind became our symbol,
and the weather became our model,
it may rain and even be so cloudy,
but whenever she appears,
the sun emerge from the rain!it kills away all my pain...
people say i do not look like her,
but why does the weather mentions her name?
i remembered,at once..
i was helpless..and lost...
i couldn't go home..
i was peniless..and empty..
i thought it was the end of the world..
but when she appeared,
she helped me find my way home!
people say i do not look like her,
but why does she fight the world for me?
after all this questions,
my questions mixed with confusion..
confusion turns haywire..
and now i'm back inside the compass..
being a needle once more..
i thought dat i knew which direction where to go,
but where is she,my torch and my soul?
after this battle,
we lost each other..
distance began to seperate us..
and now we rarely talk to each other..
it's like we're living in pluto and mars,
while we're still living on earth!
after all the damage..
there is noone to blame..
except for myslef..
let it be my mistake..
i didn't make any move to save us..
how could i?
when dere isn't anyway to contact u?
but deep within i blame myslef..
distance may seperate us,
work and studies might push us away..
but in this special place of my heart,
u were always dere..
alive..
every minute,
and every moment..
there u will be..
the Heroine Of my Heart..
thank u..
and may god always guide u.."
-Ameer Hassaan
Lets hear on what I have got to say..
For the second time..
U posted for me..
With this..
I thank u..
U felt my love..
Like the wind..
But did I feel urs..
Even if I seek for the breeze..
Time passes so fast..
When we are together..
Somehow, u drifted..
Even if its for 2 weeks..
All my muscles tensed..
My feelings ached..
Knowing I will make a fatal mistake..
Just to know how badly u want me..
U are my only hope..
My only world and galaxy..
Tho I came at the wrong time..
U still accept me then..
I missed those times..
Where we met as different status..
The senority n juniority..
The singlehood n the one taken..
U neva fails to cheer me up..
Neither did I fail to ease ur problems..
We promised to brave thru storms n weather..
But look at us now..
Drifting apart from our very own ground..
I had no idea how I got dumb-strucked..
Just after knowing the 'culprit'..
Who wrote such stuffs in the appraisal..
Needless to say..
Chemistry flows thru the electricity to the eyes..
The wind is what we yearning for..
Cause that is what brings us closer to each other..
The message brought across..
"..Sealed with a kiss.."
It just kills the aches and pain of 'missingness'..
He sent me home..
Despite of being super late..
Offered him what he needed..
He returned an unexpected smooch..
I thought we knew where we were heading..
Boy, I was sooo wrong..
U cant even make up your mind..
To be with me or with her..
A good metaphor of an unsecured, confused needle..
In a good condition of a normal compass..
In this battle..
We have never lost each other..
It is just that we are not strong enough..
To hold each other strong back again..
And now slowly, drifting..
Away from our sights..
As a matter of fact..
After reflecting back..
I thanked Allah for it..
Its a test from him to us..
And we failed it..
Even though u tried to save it..
By contacting me..
And I tested u by not replying them..
It had failed the moment..
U stopped and felt lost..
Nevermind the pain..
I thanked its the past..
As for now..
Im glad I had expressed..
What i have wanted to say all this while..
I moved on..
And so should you..
Friends we shall be..
And I thanked for everything that had happened..
Cause thats where I learnt..
The beauty of an unrequited relationships..
~ Smooching each other at
YSunday, April 09, 2006
Cranky..
Jus lack of sleep..
I hope..
Anyways, jus felt like typing wat i felt rite now..
So wat am I feelin?!
Nothing.. Zero..
Hmmm..
I just cant wait to go back to HTA where I felt my life is well used..
I wanna feel the pain and comfort at the same time in HTA..
Im beginning to hate weekends where I keep lying down on my bed and look into space..
I just want to stay inside..
Its just much betta than to think of nothing but him..
How can I still think of him when he dont..
How can I dream of being wif him when he dont..
How can I eva wish to be by his side when he dont..
In the first place, who am I to him..
Dear Diario,
I used to write to u..
Now, Im just simply plain lazy and tired..
But then, I missed writing to u..
Pardon for my laziness..
Hope u feel me like the way u used to..
Haish..
I betta get going..
Hot iron is awaiting for me..
Uniforms are waiting to be ironed-smart..
Papers and books are waiting to be full of markings..
Bag is waiting to be full..
And here I am..
Wasting my time..
Okie.. Fine..
Before I go..
A very big shout out to all my peeps..
I miss u guys..
"HaPpY BiRtHdAyS to AlL mY FeLloW PeePs"
- Omar (2 March)
- Sarah (8 March)
- Hana (16 March)
- Firdaus (23 March)
- Zaihar (2 April)
- Adnan (8 April)
P/s: Did I miss out anybody?! Pardon me if I did.. And ermm, sorry if I didnt msg some of u to wish ya.. Busy wif in-camp trainings.. May all ur wishes come true.. Hugs n Kisses!!
~ Smooching each other at
Heyz..
Its been a long time..
Just to say..
Im dont feel good whenever i returned back home on friday..
I will be reminded, no matter what..
To someone,
I dunno how u feel and what ur thinking..
But I just cant get over that day..
Pls guide me..
I was not convinced..
I feel shitty and above all..
Should I move on or stay..
Im lost than ever..
I need someone to turn to..
A shoulder to cry on..
Someone to hug to..
Just anything that can ease off my mind..
Just someone..
But now, ur no longer there for me..
Neither will be in the future..
Sorry for my wrong deeds..
Thanx for everything..
Let me walked away from my Shane West and be the Leukemia Mandy Moore..
"Ku Seru" by Misha Omar
Ku membayangi jiwa hati mu
Tapi perpisahan menunggu
Ku ingin membelai mu
Namun kasih ku tiada restu
Diri begini kerna selalu
Di tinggalkan marah sengsara
Hingga hilang terlupa
Siapa aku sebenarnya
Sayang..
(Korus)
Oh dengarlah sayu tangisan ku
Mengapa degupanmu ku seru
Kerna kesepian nan berlalu
Kembalikan hidup yang ku rindu
Oh dengarlah sunyi tangisan ku
Kau tahu ku amat menyayangi mu
Pergilah kau bukan milik ku
Pulang pada yang mengasihiDiri mu..
Kesepian berlalu..
Maafkan daku..
Sampai di sini
Ku lepas kau pergi
Biar ku damai bersemadi
Luka mu ku mengerti
Kan ku hilangkan derita.. Ini
(Ulang korus)
Kau ku seru..
~ Smooching each other at