Its All About *Da

Dearest Hanani and Tha Clover

hanani:-
u love hym don't you?? haix.. thanks fer snaching ma happiness.. seriously u n hym break ma heart.. thank you so much

Hey Hanani,
Guess u know about it aight.. I knew this was coming soon.. Well, I dont have to explain anything cos I only know u as his gf, not my friend.. But if u want to be friends, Im cool with it..
Back to topic, I know I hurt u real lots.. 3 Questions for ya..

1. Do u actually think I snatched him?! Neh.. If u know the whole story, U dunno who to blame..
2. U think I am never hurt in this path?! Its much more worst to be with someone knowing he is not yours..
3. If he is really ur happiness, why do u felt hurt and hurt him at the same time?!

All the best gal.. I have never tried to separate u both.. If u say I broke ur heart, think about it, I could have done worse.. And yes, if u asking me, I like and love him..

Tha CloveR!!:-
1*beep*2 U lah old lady...Stop snatching other people's guy...Getcha OWN LIFE 1*beep*2!!!
You r 21 he is only muthaf*cka 17...and he-u noe hu iam refering 2...
Stop Snitching, stop lying..haha

Hey Tha Clover,
I dint know 'Tha Clover' got no real name.. Sheesh.. Next time u wanna advise me, shoot ur own name aight..
Back to topic, everybody is young at heart despite of how old they are.. Thanx for the vulgarities.. I know as Hanani's friend, u obviously protect, care and side her no matter what.. Well, like I said before.. I dont owe any explanations to u.. :)
I dont snatched people's guy.. :)
I have my own sweetest life.. :)
Loads of ppl including 'he-u know who i am referring to' said that "Age does not matter".. So why should I care about what u have to compare.. :)
Whats snitching?! Whos lying?! Gosh, get ur facts right k gal.. :)

~ Smooching each other at 12:27 PM!! ~

Reminiscing memories

Hey hey.. I just felt a new fresh air to breathe.. Flashes of sunshine and glimpse of crackers around me.. Haha.. Sound like Im dreaming rite.. Well, I thought so too.. Guess, Im NOT.. Hehe..

15 Jan 06, almost to 1am, depicts the first breath..
Well, needless to say that I got swept off my feet and blown me away.. Right here, right there.. Shocked and recovered quite late.. Speechless..

Continously, I was breathing the same air the next day.. My my.. Can I just freeze the time span.. Hehe.. Okie, reality check..

After the Fairy Lala Land.. Had sho much fun in HOCKEY esp trainings and games, TP OPEN HOUSE with the performances and the Singapore Idol Finalists and not forgetting the all-time favourite Jam n Hop, DANCE back in TP Advance Class and trainings, ACTING in Remy's 'Unfinished Conversation' and finally NCC which rawks the recent East Camp Feast 1..

Hockey:- Well, trainings tough and so do we U21 gals.. Really trying my best to come for trainings and all.. Tho I do get teases from Coach but I believed I have given my all.. Kudos to SCC aka Pitch Bitches..

TP Open House:- Okie, the GLs knew who I was so no point acting like other 'O' Level students.. Well, at least I got to see encore Funka piece by Fat Mama Crew, Silats which Aida was in, Bicycle stunts and esp Spore Idol Finalists presenting Oli, Sly and Leandra.. Jam n Hop sux big time compared to previous years.. Well hey, got to meet my NCC cliques, Titans, Yana, Tp Dudes, Dancers and more.. Oh, not forgetting my K-nine Fying Dutchman.. :p

Dance:- Nothing much.. Just Danceworks really stressing out my mind.. Why? Andalei or TPDE?! Thats not the worst.. Prison Officer calling me on 15 Feb.. I still can pactise on weekend.. But will they even consider that as "Can Make It Or Not?!".. Sigh.. what should I do..

Acting:- I volunteered to help my buddy Remy in his project.. Who knows, I might discovered some talents in acting.. Hehe.. Okielah.. Sikit2 boleh lah.. :p Thanx Remy for the opportunities.. Mee goreng campur kentang k.. Huahuahua..

NCC:- East Camp Feast 1.. Was the S1 with my anakuz, Mas together with Didi and Azfar.. Super duper gerekz I tell u.. From nominal rolls, OIC Understudy Eeeduh on the walkie talkie, strengths lambat masuk, sgt Akim vs Mas "Who is more pekak", male changed to female, sickbabies to even my adik in the camp as participants and she dint even know.. Wakaka.. All and all, well done peeps.. Camp Feast 2?! Hmmm, count me out man.. Sigh..

Yeah yeah.. Back to Fairy Lala Land.. Breathe the same freash air again.. Was a real wonderful feeling.. Sniffed the same air again 2 days later and was heavenly in LOVE.. Aww.. But time was impatient to separate us.. In the end, I got to let go for that moment.. But hey, breathe it again but this time at night.. Fresh sweet-smelling or rather, sweaty feeling *Hehe* night.. Brave the nervousness together and succeeded.. Congrats.. Breathing and still breathing..

Rite now, my breath is somewhere enjoying the company of family so shall not disturb.. But wherever, whatever, however.. I will be here to breathe the freash air again soon.. Wooooooooohhhooooooo..

~ Smooching each other at 8:02 PM!! ~

Taggers' replies

pinky:-
Hey gal.. Will link u up real soon.. Do link me up too woman.. Hehe.. *Hugs*..

aMeR oN 7:-
Hey my kecik.. Hehe.. Ur been tagged and esp MISSED.. :p Do visit more often and take care wherever u are..

ally:-
Hey my adek.. Nice seeing u too.. Make sure k.. *Muacks*..

iffa:-
Hey hey.. Yeah.. After some inspiration.. Thankiu..

Yana:-
Hey my darlinkin.. GREATEST!! Finally.. I can be updated bout u.. Lurve ya super duper loads.. Cant wait to meet ya soon.. 3 Feb, our date k.. And u r most welcome to flood my Tagboard.. *Peluk tite tite*..

eeeduh:-
Alamak si OIC Understudy ni.. Like finally, u WALKIED on the TALKIE.. Hehe.. Yeah, rawk my socks big time.. Yeah sure, I slept like a pig after camp.. Hehe.. Oh, camp feast 2 is impossible la.. U will know soon y.. Love u lottss.. *Muacks*..

hafeeza:-
Hoi hoi.. Thanx for visiting.. Link me up aight.. :p

~ Smooching each other at 7:43 PM!! ~

Moment of desperation

I dunno whats going thru my mind..
I felt happy, sad, angry, lost and all at the same time..

I felt love at one moment..
I felt insecured at the same time..

What have I done..
A destructor in a pair of heaven..

I tried to leave you..
But u said "U sanggup tinggalkan I?"..

I was not convinced..
Till u said "Pls dont leave me"..

Times and times again,
I thought I was the only one..

Till the blogs prove me wrong..
There is still her in u..

I cant blame her nor u..
For I guess Im the third party..

Was it even my fault..
When I did not do anything to make my heart burning..

We will neva be like this..
If I dint go for the course..

Right now, im praying..
Whether whatever im doing is right..

U make me loved..
At the same time, u lead her on..

Im ur so-called 'mistress'..
Shes ur truly 'wife'..

U said u love me..
At the same time, u told her dat too..

Who can I turn to..
Who can I cry on to..
Who can I face rite now..
In the moment of desperation..

~ My heart aches but I truly respect ~

~ Smooching each other at 3:45 PM!! ~

Lost in Fairyland

Before i begin my very first speech about my feelings, heres my sincere replies to ma darlin Taggies..

Y@Tz:-
Yeah yeah.. TP Jam n Hop is back again this sat, 7pm.. I pun takde matric card.. Wif my friend.. I be from Zek's place, letak my hockey stuffs.. Chinese new yr is on 27 isit?! My Dad's Bday.. Lastly, pictures are up soon.. :p Really really ASAp.. Hehehe..

ally:-
Haha.. Eh darlin, when can i dance wif u hah.. Heheh.. :p

zaz:-
Hey sisko.. Yep yep, im going.. Like for real.. This time, i want tu to shake dat THANG wif me yeah.. Hehe..

eeeduh:-
Aiyooo sis.. U rabak ahh.. Kecian la dier.. Nanti dier complain pat aku eh.. I will darla darlin.. Post me too in ur blog.. Hehe..

Back to the real topic.. Jeng jeng jeng..
"I have neva try looking for 'L' eversince I broke up with Fiz.. Things changed when I was with Spidey but no matter how hard I try, I can only remain as best buddy.. Real sorry but I cant force what my heart do not want to feel.. Take it from someone who knows better -Ella Enchanted-.. After which came Zak into my life which cost half of my tears and anger getting into actions.. It was a real heartbreaking moment for me.. I really owe Spidey for the times he had been there for me when I was down..

One day, I decided to be alone and occupy myself with my passions.. Dance - NCC - Hockey.. My life is full of enriching experiences.. Love life --> BOO!!

I have a small crush on this guy.. But everything sounds impossible if u know what lies beneath.. Its very hard for me to relate this.. Only my certain closests know bout it.. Really thankful to u guys for hearin tho I know its ermm, i dunno wat it is.. But then yah, as expected, I was crushed again.. Tats it.. Came year 2006 and new resolutions were made.. The door closes automatically for anyone.. Was feeling Positvely Optimistic all the way till now..

Surprisingly, He came back.. After letting him go.. Hard to believe but I couldnt help it.. The door opens slowly yet still ajar.. Im not sure whether this is the right thing.. But my heart doesnt think.. It does on its own.. Getting stronger bit by bit.. And now, the adrenaline rushes like river.. But then.. *Haish* .. Only Allah knows what I am trying to say and thinking.. All I can say is, Im in 'L' with my Fairytale 'L'r.."

~ Smooching each other at 11:44 PM!! ~

Taggy replies..

Sis_bestie:-
U are definitely irreplaceable babe in my life.. Hehe.. But then, u are BADly wanted and missed by ur bestie.. So oi, biler boleh chill ahh.. :p And its okie to flood em.. I lurve em.. *Muacks n Hugs*..

Maz:-
Hoi anakuz.. Amacam.. Hehe.. Terpakso noh.. Nanti sat Mak kono banteh ngan kengkawan noh.. Wehehe.. Thankiu thankiu.. Sure, sure.. wait till i upload it to my multiply aight.. I mish anakuz too like horribly.. Hehe.. *Muacks*..

fad:-
Fadlee, is tat u?! Hey hi!! Thankiuuuu.. :p

pinky:-
Hey hey pinky.. Ni suhailah kan.. Hehe.. Ur cousin's link?! Siaper?? Awww, tat sho shweet of u.. I miss ya too..

eeeduh:-
Hey hey adikuz.. Kecian dier.. Jahat se u.. Tak kasi dier chance langsung.. Mesti dier giler bayang punya.. Wakaka.. Busy eh.. Busy utk reply dier lah ni.. Ish ish ish.. Pass u the pics when i get home k.. And ya.. 50th CLT course.. :p But ermmm, its only Titans.. :p Will post ur pic soon la..

ally:-
Hey hey ma pagal.. i mish ya too.. See ya when I see ya.. *Hugs*..

zaz:-
BOO!! Takut tak?! Hehe.. Hey hey sis.. Miss ya too.. Gimme a ring esp TP Open House.. I wanna boogie my ass off at Jam n Hop.. Weeeee.. *Huggies*..

~ Smooching each other at 9:50 PM!! ~

Words for 2005

Time passed slowly yet it seems faster.. What do I have to say about year 2005.. Hmmm.. Well, lemme see..

DANCE:-
I began dancing back for performances and competitions after quite some time.. The biggest moment was to be part of the NDP MTV 05 with Taufik Batisah and Rui En plus 10 other dancers namely, Meimei, Angela, Wilson, Lovynn, Dee, Amin, Esliza, Bee, Hamzah and Eugene.. A pity I lost the group pictures due to my burned PC.. Sneak previews from the scenes..

"Bestest moment from me to Singapore Bday 05"

Well, not forgetting my wonderful dancers from Temasek Poly Dance Ensemble (TPDE).. Had the greatest time knowing new dancers, getting stronger with 1.9.7.0 and being under Ryan Tan sure kick asses.. Bonds tighter during GEM Concert 05, Hip Hop Classes, Hip Hop Chalet and BBQs.. Competitions like World Floorball Championship (WFC), World Cyber Games (WCG), Dare to Dream Dance Challenge and esp supports from TPDE make 1.9.7.0 stronger.. Some sneak previews..

"TPDE rawks ma socks"

"The poster says it all"

NCC:-

I came back for the 104km Challenge Quest and represent EAST in Archery.. Supposedly to be in MOC but thank god, my request was answered.. Haha.. Yeah.. Twice in a row.. EAST --> Home of the Champion!! Many2 Congrats to DC Leong, Lt Wan, Sgt Mus, TOs, CLTs and Cadets from the EAST.. From then on, attended events and camps.. Opening of Flying Fox, Spec Course 2, Supernumerary Outing and the best of all --> 50th CLT Course.. The instructors rawk big time.. Gossip Mongers!! My lovely TiTaNs of Syndicate 2 (I remember my 34 darlinkins + Papa Jinfu + Uncle Zulfarhan!!) Last but least, I missed my CLTs CLIQUES badly.. Sneak previews..

"Home of the Champion!!"

"TiTaNs - 50th CLT Syndicate 2"

"Ma lovely BUNCH"

HOCKEY:-

Came back for good this time.. Back to SCC.. U21, here i come.. Tho I know Im not in favor by most (I guess) but still what matters is that I still have my great buddies and coaches like Danker and Kevin who believe in me.. Sneak preview..

"Pitch Bitches of SCC"

OTHERS:-

Definitely, its the unforgettable Princesses.. They were the ones who made my lives in TP more memorable.. Not forgetting the TP Dudes who have sometimes irritated me yet bring so much laughter in the 3 years.. Dancers from different crews do make loads of impact in my life.. I will never forget certain dancers from SDC, BAD, E03, DASH, En_Route and more.. And of course my darling Bestie.. Tho its been long we met but u know u still the best in my life.. Nor forgetting my Sec peeps.. Y'all truly missed.. Oh, lastly, wanna say thank u to Spidey, Amy and those who make an impact in my life.. May friendship prevails.. Some sneaky previews..

"Ma TP Mates; Princesses"

"Ma Dear Darlinkins"

"Sec Peeps + SCC PB"

P/S: Pictures of the dancers are unavailable.. Do get in touch with me if u have one.. Thankiu.. Bye 2005.. WELCOME 2006!!

~ Smooching each other at 11:08 AM!! ~

Tag da Tag

Y@tz:-
Hey sis! Thanx soo much.. Insya'allah, cek rajin2kan tangan badan cek on komputer sambil updatekan.. Wehehe.. And thank u sooo much for making the night happening.. Tho a bit errmm rosak.. Hehe.. Im uploading soon and no worries.. I pass u the pic.. Hehe..

eeeduh:-
Hey hey kecik.. Suka dier eh.. Anyway, si "Man" kirim salam pat "adikku".. Wakaka.. Kesian dier.. Sms "adikku" tapi tak dibalas.. WAHAHA..

Amai:-
Hey hey there.. Thankiu thankiu.. I love this movie too.. Tak jelak2.. Tapi takmu gushing2 pat sini nanti blog ni senang blush tau.. Wahaha.. Ape jer Fid..

mizsy:-
Hoi hoi kecik.. Lamer tak nampak.. Heard loads of stories.. Well, i have updated ur link.. :)

~ Smooching each other at 2:20 PM!! ~

First post of the year..

Hey Hey.. Long time no posts..

New year.. 2.0.0.6.. New resolutions.. New layout.. New friends made.. New life.. What else.. Hmmm..

Oh yah, I have decided to make my entries close to my personal feelings, rather than informing the world about my timetables.. Plus the outings and details..

Hope everything will be just right for me.. Insya'allah..

~ Smooching each other at 2:05 AM!! ~